When you are as old as I am (and feel), that is, older than Olduvai, you will really appreciate this poem by Philip Larkin.
THE OLD FOOLS
What do they think has happened, the old fools,
to make them like this? Do they somehow suppose
it's more grown-up when your mouth hangs open and drools,
and you keep on pissing yourself, and you can't remember
who called this morning? Or that, if they only chose,
they could alter things back to when they could dance all night,
or went to their wedding, or sloped arms some September?
Or do they fancy there's really been no change,
and they've always behaved as if they were crippled or tight,
or sat through days of thin continous dreaming
watching light move? If they don't (and they can't) it's strange:
Why aren't they screaming?
At death you break up: the bits that were you
start speeding away from each other for ever
with no one to see. It's only oblivion, true:
we had it before, but then it was going to end,
and was all the time merging with a unique endeavour
to bring to bloom the million-petalled flower
of being here. Next time you can't pretend
there'll be anything else. And these are the first signs:
now knowing how, not hearing who, the power
of choosing gone. Their looks show that they're for it:
ash hair, toad hands, prune face dried into lines -
How can they ignore it?
Perhaps being old is having lighted rooms
inside your head, and people in them, acting.
People you know, yet can't quite name; each looms
like a deep loss restored, from known doors turning,
setting down a lamp, smiling from a stair, extracting
a known book from the shelves, or sometimes only
the rooms themselves, chair and a fire burning,
the blown bush at the window, or the sun's
faint friendliness on the wall some lonely
rain-ceased mid-summer evening. That is where they live
not here and now but where all happened once.
That is why they give
an air of baffled absence, trying to be there
yet being here. For the rooms grow farther, leaving,
incompetent cold the constant wear and tear
of taken breath, and them crouching below
extinction's alp, the old fools, never perceiving
how near it is. This must be what keeps them quiet:
the peak that stays in view wherever we go
for them is rising ground. Can they never tell
what is dragging them back, and how it will end? Not at night?
Not when the strangers come? Never, throughout
the whole hideous inverted childhood? Well,
we shall find out.
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